God

    These last few days have been a huge wake up call for me. After whats happened in Japan, I have thought about how precious time is, and how you just never know when your time will come. I have been to church but not enough. I have talked with my girls about God and what Jesus did for us but not enough. I dont want this to sound crazy but here it goes... Its made me think that maybe just maybe that all the signs in Revelations are happening, have been happening for awhile now and right now, its not to late to get our act together.  I am always the first to panic when things go bad, but somehow I think that right nows a good time to be seriously getting closer with God, whether its time for Jesus to come back or not, I dont wanna go through this crazy life without him. 

   I don't stop long enough sometimes to appreciate how very blessed I am.  We all gripe about how we want what other people have or get jealous that others have the "perfect" life. We complain about how hard our life is and forget about all the good things in life, like our healthy children or, tiny apartments, atleast its a home. Just the other day I saw a tent under the bridge on my way to the mall, somebody was sleeping out in the cold and I'm going to get my hair done?? And I complain about how awful I have it? We are all a little selfish sometimes, always wanting more when there is someone out there who dreams of what we have, and we take it for granted. I know my kids are safe when they go to bed tonight, but there is a mama out there somewhere that doesnt know where her baby is. My point is, God gave us the life we have for a reason. The least we could do is appreciate the simple blessings we get to have in it.

     For a long time I have been so angry. I have been hurt. I let that hurt change how I felt about things and for along time, I let that ruin my faith. I believed in him until everything went wrong and thats when I needed him the most. I havent lived the way I should have. God gives us tests, but gives us the answers if we listen, but I failed mine cuz I shut him out. Slowly I was able to put the past behind me and realized that he was right there with me all along.   Its really sad that it took an earthquake to make me stop and think.

    With everything going on in the world right now, its nice to know that I have the man upstairs on my side.