Discouragement

Today has really not been good for me. I have tried so hard this week to to stay away from bad foods. I gave up drinking pop which has been really hard and Ive completely cut out sugar ( well besides the 100 calorie packs which have about 2 cookies in them, but I was only having 1 a day) Instead of burgers if we are out and stop to eat, its been grilled chicken and salads with wine vinegar dressing. I have been drinking lots of water and when I felt like I just had to eat something I have had a cup (instead of a bowl) of Special K. Every day this week I have stuck with 1200 calories a day. I have come nowhere close to eating as much as I was before I started this diet.

Me and chels thought it was time to weigh ourselves just out of curiosity and I have gained weight! How does that happen? What I want to do right now is just go get an xtra large pizza with every topping you can think of and just polish off the whole thing by myself. Starving myself all week has been completely pointless. To make it 10 times worse, Chels has lost weight since we started this diet together. I am happy for her, I really am, but I am the 1 thats 40 pounds overweight. 

Im not asking for sympathy, dont get me wrong, I know I am the 1 who got myself this way. I just know that I am not exactly sitting on my butt all day whining about being fat, I am up and trying to do something about it and I gain weight????

So, after crying for a good 15 minutes and resisting the urge to head straight to the fridge, I started doing some research and asked Chelsea to go the store to pick up a few things so I can make sure this week is different.

               http://www.nowloss.com/foods-not-to-eat-when-trying-to-lose-weight-dieting.htm

Here are just a few quotes I found while looking for weight loss tips....

To put food and weight behind you, you will need to choose life. Choosing life means showing up with your full presence in the world. Permanent weight loss is the work of opening your heart to all that is good in you and in the world.  It means living a life of gratitude. When you feel better, you eat better. 

Discouragement

  "If you've invested enough effort and energy to get discouraged, you're well on your way to success. Discouragement is a certain weigh station on the road to any worthwhile achievement.
   If you know and care enough to be discouraged, you've made considerable progress. Learn what the discouragement has to teach you and then continue moving forward. It may seem as though you'll never make it, but in reality you're already there. Discouragement tempers and hardens you; it does not stop you.
   Reflect on your discouragement and you'll discover that it is a result of your commitment. You've already invested your time, your effort, your life. Soon, you'll reap the full reward of that investment. Let discouragement spur you on.
   Motivation is born of desire. The stronger the desire for something, the stronger the motivation.    Endeaver to keep the promises we make to ourselves... We deserve to be treated with the same love and respect that we would give to others....."